Today I thought of something that I wanted (well really, it's something I've been wanting and trying to get for a little while now and it just hasn't worked out yet). It was a somewhat selfish want...nothing like wanting health for my family or world peace or anything, but just something I wanted for Pack and I and our new baby girl. No biggie.
After working through my Experiencing God workbook this morning, I had a rush of thoughts...
I wondered if what I wanted was something that was necessary for my home or just something for my and my family's comfort and enjoyment. (comfort and enjoyment)
I wondered if God would be angry at me for interrupting His business of "preparing for eternity" while I ask Him to provide for something small. (Would I be angry at my children for asking me to provide something small for them...HELLO...Christmas lists, anyone?)
I wondered what would happen if I just simply asked God for what I wanted and trusted that He would provide it. (Either He would provide it, or He wouldn't...either way, I would survive)
So I did. I selfishly, yet confidently asked God to provide me a way to get the couple of things that I had been wanting for our home in a way that would be impossible for me to do myself.
A strange series of events happened then. Initially, I had an urge to write down exactly what I had asked for (which I didn't do because they boys got hungry and I had to make lunch). Then, I forgot all about what I had originally wanted. It completely left my mind, which was pretty unusual considering I've been thinking about it multiple times every day for a while now. And finally...my husband called me (within a few hours) and told me that we were probably going to be seeing a little extra money in the next month or so, thanks to some changes that his work made (which will provide what I wanted plus extra!!!).
WHAT???!!!
Yep...by lunchtime, the God of the universe had shown me that He cares about my comfort and enjoyment...God cares about the little things. He showed me that when I simply ask for something AND leave Him in charge (that's the kicker), He will provide it or something better. God wants me to rely on Him for my every need and to express my wants to Him as well.
That was easy. |
Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
LOVE THIS!!! Great story of God providing for you. I was just talking with Tim last night about how I do believe that it's okay to want for things sometimes, just not to let it get in the way of your love for God and not EXPECT God to provide it for you. I'm so happy you had this experience today! :)
ReplyDeleteNot choppy at all! I forget this so often! It's amazing and wonderful how God provides what we need and what we want. We had something kind of similar going on around here. When I found out I was pregnant, one of my biggest concerns was money because having a baby ain't cheap. Within a month, PJ had a new job with a new raise. Even more amazing is how He provided for us when PJ lost his job while I was pregnant with Cara. It blows my mind every time I think about it. Thanks for reminding me of God's goodness. :-)
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